Monday, 19 April 2010

Are you coming with me?

OK.  This is the plan.   Just like it says.  I am going to sit in churches to think. I have been daring myself to do it for months.  I live in central London and each day, taking the children to school, doing the shopping, going to work, always running to the next bit, always racing, I walk past so many churches.   I imagine the interiors as beautiful, peaceful places.  And yet, I am scared to go inside.  I am the single mum of two young boys, with an ex alcoholic ex husband living in a hostel on our street, a load of debt and  a rejected novel.  My life isn't very pretty.  Though I love it.  Love those boys, love writing, love London, love having discovered so much along the way. But somedays it is a struggle to keep going, keep everyone else going, keep OK and I think that must be why those beautiful, peaceful places look so appealing.

I intend to go to the nearest church to our small flat first, and then the second nearest etc but I am not going to measure distance on maps, just guess it.  I want to describe the churches I sit in.  Name them, give some details of the place, some history. I am fascinated by the idea of people building them, building so many, the gradations of belief and faith that meant another, a street away, would be necessary.  I will enter any church that will let me.  I aim to start tomorrow. Though I am scared.




Amen.

1 comment:

  1. its a lovely idea, more people should.... I went into the church round the corner from work once, in Colebrooke Row, just to see what was there. Any building with an open door is worth a look, it fills in the gaps of your knowledge.

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